So today is the first day of my vacation and it has been a busy and tiring day. The last 24 hours have been interesting to say the least. I got off early from work to gets some last minute laundry done. I got that started and my friend Pike showed up. He was taking Amanda to the airport at 4 in the morning and ended up coming over early. We chilled out and played some rock band. Amanda came home early and she finished getting ready for her trip. Fast forward to a couple hours later. I’m on my way to pick up my mom and drop her off at the airport. It was 4:45 in the morning. As I was driving down the interstate my car suddenly jerked then started slowing down. I dropped gears and then it started going again. Before I get to my moms house I notice that the dashboard lights were dimming. I reach my mothers house only to have my car die. I jump it with my moms car we get in and go. Not even a mile down the road I nearly loose all power. I quickly turn around and make my way back to my mothers house. We barely make it. We jump into her car and get her to the airport. By this its 5:30 in the morning. At this point I leave for Denver in 6 hours. By the time I get home its 6am. I try my best to fall asleep. An hour later I get woken up by my ex wife who shows up at my place so she can watch the kids while I’m gone. I tell her to let me sleep until 9. 5 minutes passes by, well it seemed like 5 minutes, and she’s waking me up again. At this point I’ve had less than 3 hours sleep and I have a full day of traveling ahead of my. I go back to my car, swap the battery and make my way home. I stop off at the store first to pick up some last minute items and get home. My friend Emily offered to drive down from Denver to pick me up and take me to the airport. She shows up just as I’m done with my shower. I hurry up, finish packing and make sure I didn’t forget anything. We pack up my things in the car and head to Denver. By this time is 12:30pm. I have to be at the Terminal by 3pm. We stop off for lunch and make another stop at Target and then finally get to Emily’s house. We have a quick cup of tea then realize that by this time it’s 2:30pm. It’s off to the airport where I arrive at 3pm. Check-in and security were fast and painless. I only had to wait 30 minutes before they started boarding the plane. The flight was fast and smooth. Once on the ground I got to see my good friend Kelly who was waiting to pick me up. I haven’t seen her in about 3 years. We’ve been friends since high school and we are old party buddies. We made our way to the carousel to pick up my bag which was pretty much waiting for me. I’m fucking amazed at how fast and efficient this airport is. Once we got to her house I could finally take a few moments and relax. We had a nice dinner and then we went to Fremont Street. That was certainly an experience. Well, now its off to finally get some good sleep. I’ve only gotten 6 hours sleep in the last 48 hours so I’m pretty fucking tired. I think I’ll have some wine first. Tomorrow looks to be a relaxing day. Some breakfast, a massage at noon, possibly a new tattoo and a movie. Saturday is when we hit the strip and at some point we’re gonna go see a show call Zumanity. I’d also like to be able to go see The Amazing Jonathan but I’m gonna play it by ear. I am sleep deprived and exhausted but even with the minor setbacks that happened I arrived unscathed. So far its been a rough start but it looks to be worth it.
Tonight I will be posting the second comic of Coffee Raiders. I have taken measures to make sure the posting goes smoothly this time. There were some other minor edits that had to be made. I made a few tweaks to the site as well. Nothing major, just some house cleaning stuff. I’m very happy that the pilot was so well received. I hope that we can keep up this momentum and continually gain more readers with each passing week.
In other news I will be leaving for Las Vegas in just over a week. This will be my first real vacation that doesn’t involve any kind family celebration. I’m really excited about the trip because I will be able to see my old friend and party buddy.
We have a few things planned out. There’s the standard fare of cruising the strip, going downtown, gambling, seeing a show, etc.
One of the shows I’m going to see is from Cirque du Soleil called Zumanity. I’m told its part burlesque and part cabaret. It should prove to be entertaining. Also I’m finally going to be able to try In n Out Burger. I know that isn’t that exciting but everyone from California always raves that they have the best burgers so I will have to give one a try.
I will make sure that the comics do post on time while I’m away. If I don’t It might be because I was too drunk to post them in a timely manner. I’m going to schedule them ahead of time so that they auto post but that feature hasn’t been working properly for some reason. I’ll try to set up a backup plan in case the unforeseen happens.
Incase you don’t already know you can read the web comic at http://www.coffeeraiders.com
Over the last few years I’ve started a lot of projects A few I was able to complete but most of them were lost to obscurity. They were all great ideas and I really did want to follow through with them. A year and a half ago my friend Robin came to me and wanted to try to make t-shirts out of some characters that she drew. I got the site set up. Threw down some money for the domain and set forth to make this a reality. It ended up on the back burner and we only realized this once the time came to renew the domain name. We decided against it and let that dream fade. Fast forward to today. In just a few minutes we will be launching a project that will have been able to complete.
Four months ago I had the brilliant idea to start a web comic. What brought on this idea is that for many years we would go out to a late night diner, have coffee and discuss whatever came to mind. We have so many stories that we find ourselves telling and retelling them to anyone and everyone we know or even don’t know. I realized that since we had all these stories that we needed to share them on a grander scale. There was talk of a book and even a website but the idea of a web comic seemed, to me, like it was the best way to be able to tell these stories.
I proposed my idea to Robin and like usual we started planning with gusto. I started writing furiously and once I had a few scripts I gave them to Robin so she could begin writing. We got a couple of comics done but things began to slow down. It wasn’t until our friend Amanda learned of the project when things began to take off. She kept us on task and got involved with promoting the comic. She even helped write some of the scripts.
So now after many months of hard work, great fun and MANY cups of coffee we are launching a project that we are proud of. I can’t wait to see the reception of it. I hope people like it as much as we do. And if your interested in reading it please check it out at www.coffeeraiders.com
So I’ve realized that when I combined both this and my writing blog that, at the time, it would be a great idea. I have noticed that I really haven’t written much about much of any writing that I have done. This is due to the fact that I haven’t done much writing. I did start writing a book and I’m up to three chapters but I seem to be stuck where I’m at right now. I want to write more but I just don’t have the drive to do so. I’m not painted into a corner. I know where I want the story to go, I just can’t seem to get it down. Its very frustrating to not be able to write. I think I’ve lost my inspiration.
Other projects that I’m working on are in full gear. The web comic I’ve mentioned is close to launching. We have a tentative date to launch on the 26th of October. I’m really excited about the project but I’m concerned that some of the art wont be done for the launch. I’m hoping this isn’t the case but I haven’t really been in the mood to have a meeting with her because of other shit I’ve been dealing with lately. I’ll get back on task starting Monday I hope.
The one daunting task with the web comic is the website design. I had forgotten most of the coding knowledge I had when I was younger so I had to start over from the beginning. Another thing that I had to deal with was dealing with designing software I wasn’t familiar with. I’ve overcome a lot of obstacles and it’s starting to look very nice. There are a few things that I need to add and punch up before its done but I’m happy with what I’ve done so far.
I have a busy couple of weeks ahead of me and I hope that everything works out but you never know what may happen. In the mean time I’ll continue to stare at my novel hoping that I can squeeze a few paragraphs out. If not I’ll just start anew when NaNoWriMo starts.
One of my guilty pleasures in life is watching the TV show Glee. I don’t know why I like it but I do. I was finally able to watch the season premiere last night and it was entertaining. One of the song choices they used was Empire State of Mind by Jay-Z. Its essentially a song about New York. I’ve heard this song before and I’ve always liked it. Well once I heard it again I decided that i wanted to listen to the real song so I went to the interwebs and downloaded it.
After downloading that I then got on a music kick and downloaded a bunch of other songs and albums that I wanted. After everything was done downloading and imported into iTunes I listened to the song that started this quest for music. I love this song and it gave me nostalgic feelings of when I was younger.
When I was 16 I went to New York to visit some family from both my moms side and my step-fathers. We arrived in Newark and stayed in Jersey with my aunt. The next day we went into the city. We didn’t really do a lot of sight seeing but we walked around the city and I was just amazed. As soon as I stepped off the bus I was in love and knew that one day I would live here. The next day we met my uncle in the Village for lunch. Even though I had only been here just the day before, I was already acting like a New Yorker. The trip ended too quickly but I left with a desire and passion to one day live there.
After the song finished playing and I was done reminiscing I was reminded of another song that was very inspirational when I was about to leave high school. Its called Everybody’s Free (to Wear Sunscreen) by Baz Luhrmann. It was played quite frequently on the radio and its really makes you think about the future. This combined with Empire State of Mind made me remember how much I really wanted to live in New York.
I think I lost my desire to live there after 9/11. When the whole thing happened it shook everyone up and it wasn’t that I was scared to live there but the whole feeling of the city had changed. It wasn’t the city I had remembered and I didn’t want to live there anymore. I decided at that point to move to the second city, Chicago. Well its been 9 years since the attack and its back to its same old glory that I remember. I’m no longer wanted to live in Chicago. I’m taking up my old stance and changing my choice back to New York. The city so nice they named it twice. If you can make it there you can make it anywhere. So I’m saying goodbye to the thoughts of living in San Francisco, Portland, Seattle, and Chicago. I left my Heart in New York and I’m going to make it there one day. It may not be in a year. It may not be in 10 years but one day I’ll get there.
It is now official. I will be going to Las Vegas in November for my first real vacation. I say its my first real vacation because all the other times I’ve traveled it has usually been due to family get togethers. Are those vacations? Sure, but this is my first one where I chose the destination, I paid for the trip and I completely planned it. It’s just me and the world, and my friend Kelly and her fiance since they’re putting me up while I’m there.
Now the one downside to this is that NaNoWriMo starts on the first and I’ll be gone from the 4th through the 10th. I doubt I’ll get much writing down while I’m gone but there’s always the plane ride and the time at the airport I can use to write.
I’m really looking forward to this trip because I need it badly. With all thats happened I need to get away and immerse myself in some pure unadulterated fun. I really need to get away and be somewhere else so that when I come back I’ll have a clear mind and can tackle the things I need to do with a fresh perspective.
I’ve found something out about myself and its quite jarring. I don’t know who i am at my core. I don’t know what my base color is. I’m a chameleon. I blend in with those around me and match their colors. I’ve done this for so long that I don’t know what my original color is.
I’ve felt this way a lot recently but it didn’t really hit me until Labor Day. I was invited to a BBQ and got to see a lot of my friends that I don’t hang out with a lot. I wish I could but schedules conflict with being able to. When I was there I felt like the odd man out. Here are a group of people I’ve known for years. They’re all parents and are all married. It was odd to try to adapt to the surroundings there but I ultimately couldn’t do it. I was just there.
So I need to find my center again, to find out who I am without any outside influences. Hopefully when I come back from my vacation I’ll be able to do that. If can’t do it when I come back maybe when I move to Denver next year I’ll be able to.
So I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about life and what not and I’ve come to a disturbing thought. I really think that I don’t really belong anywhere. I feel like I’m fake, like I am just bull shitting them and myself. I don’t think I’m a good writer, or know a lot about technology, am groovy like a hippy, smart like the friends I have in college or am cool enough not to care about anything.
When I’m around my various cornucopia of different types of friends I feel like I’m merely mirroring the traits that the friend has so I can be accepted by them. Now this may not sound bad in some cases but the way I see it is that if someone were to mirror me what would that be.
My wonderful friend said that I’m just like her, unique So much so that we don’t fit into normal society or to the fringe personalities and that its a good thing. I wish I could believe that. On one hand being unique is great but on the other it can be depressing.
This also ties into the whole what I wanna be when I grow up problem. I have no idea what I want to do with my life professionally. I have a job, which blows, and it pays the bills but I want to be doing something productive with my life.
If you asked me now what I want to do when I grow up I’d have to stand there for a minute and really think about it. I’d probably come up with the answer of writer but seeing as I think my writing sucks I can’t believe that I’d ever get paid doing something like that.
Now one might say “why don’t you go back to school?” This would be a good idea, however I don’t know what I want to do so how can I pick a major. Yes I can go for an English major but thats really not going to help me with a job unless I go for a teaching degree and I really don’t think I could be a teacher.
I just wish I could find some answers to these life questions. I don’t want to be stuck in a dead end job the rest of my life. I want to do something that will be great and possibly lead to greatness. I wish I knew what that was so I can get started and actually do something with my life.